you need to feel in order to heal

it’s getting bad again isn’t it? i always notice it when i start picking at the skin on my fingers again when i can’t sleep at night stop answering to peoples texts when i forget to eat and feel a knot in my stomach after every thought about the meal that comes next i can’t sit still anymore, but at the same time i’m constantly exhausted physically and mentally there’s nothing anymore that feels important i stop reaching out because I don’t want to bring others down it’s that time again i notice it now i know i need to start picking myself back up from the ground.